Sorry i haven't posted for a while....i've just been going through a little bit of a stessful time with the professional qualification i'm doing. I totally screwed up because at the last minute i realised that i hadn't done an assignment - i thought i had done what was required, but when i looked at the syllabus a little closer i realised that i had not completed one from a range of subjects that i was supposed to. I was horrified because it wasn't as easy as just going home and not going to bed until i had written it. I actually had to go to another department and sit with someone and then write about what i had observed - and how was i going to do that one day before hand in?!! I panicked all night and a colleague came to my rescue with some notes about about one of the subjects he did, and i had a bit of knowledge about the subject and somehow that night managed to cobble something together that actually turned out to be my best bit of work! figure that one out!!!
However, what hasn't helped is that i am on a mad bonkers diet. Its something akin to slimfast. Its brilliant for rapid weight loss, and i lost 8lbs in a week. But it is so so hard going i can't tell you. I am due to be weighed tomorrow, and i will be exstatic if i can make it to 14lbs. But, i have to say, i am not sure the misery is worth it. I have to drink 4 litres of water a day (or ordinary black tea - and nothing else, not flavoured water or anything!), and haven't eaten solid food for 2 weeks almost...of course i am going to lose weight. I will probably stay on this for another week and then give it up and go to weight watchers. Its been a really good start to the diet, but i just don't think that i can sustain this for much longer. Its interesting though because i'm not craving the things that i thought i might - for example chocolate. Not once have i even considered buying chocolate. I'm craving Roast chicken!! I also crave fruit and vegetables.
You actually don't realise how much your life revolves around food until you give it up! I can't stand to be in my office at lunchtime because it smells like food, so i go to the park to look at the animals, and everyone else is there eating their lunch. So you go home after work and think it will be easier, until you turn on the tv and see all the food adverts and people in tv shows eating...i tell you....if i haven't learnt will power now, i never will!! I think weight watchers now will be easypeesy!!